The Week

Well, this week River has come out from the East Coast to stay with us. I think she's having a good time hopefully. Basically we're doing all the touristy things we can, along with plays and stuff. For the most part we seem to be having a good time. At least I hope she's having a good time. It's always awkward when you're staying at someones house. At least I always feel awkward. Luckily it has given me the excuse to go to this great international gift shop why my mom was working. I spent over $30 there buying things from England, Germany, China, Italy, and Tibet. It did let me get a jump on how I want to decorate my room for the Fall. I've been feeling very oddly spiritual lately, but in no way religious. I'd rather just be surrounded by things that give off good energy in general than that are specific to any one religion. I'm not really a big fan of organized religion of any kind. Anything that gives you a book that tells you what to think, telling you not to question it under implying that blind faith is a virtue I could care less about less than zilch. If the son of god was born in the desert 2000 years ago, maybe I can't say I know. If there are gods that rest in everybody and everything, that live on a mountain in Greece, I don't know, and I don't care to. History is pretty much all guess work, trying to piece together accounts and making the best guess about what's right. I can't logically claim that there was or wasn't a Jesus, a Zeus, a Vishnu. That's really where faith has to come in. The figures aren't important.

Truly, if I were to look into my religious beliefs I would have to say most of all I'm a Buddhist, but not completely because that would rule out quite about what I could do for my own spirituality. If you want to understand my religious relics I plan on using in my room, I have a Mary Magdalene pendent (which I have been wearing all day), a Tibetan prayer flag, a jade energy bead, a Buddha board, and am planning on getting a Saraswati Statue. Eclectic mix I know. As far as I am concerned, as long as a religion promotes peace and harmony, I like it.

Really I think I'm just a Spiritualist. Part of my own mix of Religions and what I would like to call the Church of Logic. Oxymoronic I know, but if you don't at least try to think things through...the universe for the most part seems to operate on logical principles, you can figure a fair portion out. You have to use logic as far as you can, and then use that point as your diving board for your faith, not excepting ignorance as an acceptable point and letting people with their own agendas fill your head with their beliefs, or even just beliefs they want you to hold so they remain in control. Faith is a powerful thing. I'm sure more than one "religious" leader has used that for their benefit. I don't think I could ever really follow an organized religion that I didn't start myself. I'm not an atheist, not even really an agnostic, but I just can't be religious.
-Lia