The End

Well I did it yesterday. I broke up with Michael. I don't think either of us have completely come to terms with it. I think what I'm most upset about is the fact that he's upset. I don't like hurting people. I mean I like him, but like I said, I love him, I'm not in love with him. It's just funny what your mind does to you. All leading up to it, I could only think of all the things that annoyed me. Right after you can only remember all the good things. Change is just scary in general I think, and I'm so bad at making decisions. Part of it I think is just the fact that things were comfortable as they were. Dating is crap, now I'm back on the market again. I truly wish the perfect man would just drop out of the sky and everything would be perfect. But life isn't that easy. Part of the problem I think is that for years I have been writing my perfect man into existence at least in my mind, and I'm still waiting to find him. I don't even know if that's possible or just a romantic fantasy. I'm still young. I suppose I'll find out. I'm just sad right now. I think I just need to let myself be sad.
-Lia