Men

Sometimes I think that if we weren't born with the sex drives we have, we'd never have continued on the species, because relationships can be such crap. It's been months since I broke up with Michael, and that's still crap. I know that part of my problem is that I never can figure out what it is I want, but I'm trying to work on that, I'm in therapy for a reason. I think one thing I've figured out in college is that everyone is sincerely messed up. I don't think there's one person in the world who's ever made it through this life in less in a crappy mood. Seriously, at this point I'm just sort of ready to give up on men. I have this ideal, and I've never met anything close to it. Maybe I'm just too picky, but I'm not happy. I feel like I'm 19 and I'm becoming jaded, and I don't like that. I feel like while I'm young I can get things from men, and I might as well just do that since I don't get much more out of it. I like the attention, I like being held, but I don't have what I want and I'm not happy. I know people are probably getting tired with me venting about this, but it effects me more than I would ever want to admit. I just hate relationships right now. Part of it might be the hormones, but I feel so crappy, and no one seems to get it. I just...I don't even know
-Lia